(Me wearing my Nature Valley headband which I get mocked for MERCILESSLY everyday)
After I made my hiatus video on JustACurbsideProphet, I've been thinking a lot. Actually, my brain is almost as fried as the college sorority girls' bodies who happen to be kickin' it in the Keys over Spring Break
(no hard feelings tho tbh).
(no hard feelings tho tbh).
Anyhoozle, I've come down to three things that I'm working on currently:
Human Interaction (see last post)
Making plans and actually fulfilling them
1. As for human interaction, things are looking up. I've made more friends, and made peace with others. I still have yet to talk to my dream guy who lives my dorm. He resembles an ungodly mix of Michael Pitt and Andrew Vanwyngarden, but hey - baby steps (we make eye contact a lot).
2. Redefining confidence is a new concept for me. You always hear people telling you to "just be confident", even those within the beauty/ fashion community. I don't think half of them even know what they are saying. It's become such a cliche that even I don't know what it actually feels like anymore. But what does it even mean? What does it feel like to be confident? Is the key to ultimate happiness purely confidence? Can you really learn how to become that way or will that self doubt always linger? It's more about psychology than anything really. I'm trying to find those revelations that can change the way you think... it's just been a little harder than I imagined.
3. Lastly, the third point is making plans and actually fulfilling them. For those who don't know me in real life, I can be a flake sometimes. When I don't feel comfortable, or when I plan incorrectly, I kind of fall off the face of the earth and I don't like when that happens. But this isn't just a social issue, I'm beginning to make plans for future projects, summer classes, jobs, and adult stuff. Blerg.
(Trees on trees on trees)
(Blueberry pancakes get at me)
So I'm currently Up North with limited internet wifi, thinking intensely about these three things. There's also this crazy thrift store down the road from me which I intend on rummaging through tomorrow, so expect a Youtube video on it if I find anything. That's something I've been into recently- absurd and quirky thrift shops like the one in The Doom Generation by Gregg Araki. I plan on going ham when I get back to the Twin Cities and hitting up all of the vintage shops when I still have the foggy illusion that I can afford the things I'll by.
(Rose McGowan in the Doom Generation (1995) by Gregg Araki. You should really see it. )
But as always, I love you guys and I want to thank you for sticking around on all of my websites! If you don't see a video from me soon, just remember that I'm still going through those 3 bullet points.